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Sometimes, I think being a mother makes those insecurities even worse. I question everything that I am doing now, everything I have done in the past and everything I will do in the future. There is so much I can do to mess things up. I just don't question these things once, I question them over and over again often forcing others to question them with me. And if I am not just questioning my things, I am questioning others and passing judgment on them to make me feel as if I am somehow better.
We have insecurities within our jobs. Did I do whatever good enough? Will people really believe that I can do X or does anyone know what I really do? Should they even know what I do, because what if I mess up then how will I explain? How will I hide it when I do mess it up?
Why do we do this to ourselves? Isn't this the behavior of teenagers? Perhaps this means we are all young at heart? I don't feel young. I feel tired. It wears on me. I like to think I am a self-confident adult. But I am not.
I actually had my reoccurring dream last night. I have this dream at least once a year if not more often. I dreamed I was in high school again. I was sitting through some God awful lecture and the instructor was using some new way to teach that I found absolutely ridiculous. I felt all the doubts about myself trapping me in my desk, worrying I would be in trouble if I questioned the supreme logic of my teacher, studying material I already new to be one truth but re-learning it based on the ideals of the teacher, etc...
Finally, it started to come to me. I was sitting in my desk and the whole class left. This whole class was filled with all my adult friends, past or present. They were all dressed in the new "In" fashions. Looking foolish in their "hip hop" cloths even though they are all contributing members of society who are each important in their own rights. I stayed behind. My thoughts were clouded by this fear that I knew I was in trouble for skipping out on where ever it was the rest were going. It wasn't until they returned that my thoughts cleared.
One woman asked me, "Heidi, you know you are in trouble. Why didn't you come?" I replied, "I have done this all before. It is time for me to move on." I stood up muted protests and threats from the teacher and walked out the door. On the other side of the door, I woke.
I am not sure how I am going to do it. But it is time that I believe in myself. I do not need others to believe in me. I just need to believe in me. All I have to do is look around at my life and block out with others say "good or bad". Both type of comments, I believe re-awake those old insecurities. I do appreciate a spoken or written "Good Job". I just am not going to look for them any longer. ~throws grad cap in the air~
Morons is all I have to say. Why can't they believe him when he says... I get paid X and I won't take less then X + Y (or some other variant) to take your position. Seriously people, why would anyone switch jobs to get paid less. And not just a little bit less, but a substantial amount less.
In all truth, we have decided that DH could take less then what he is getting paid now, but that is only if it is into an area for which we want to move. NOT in this same God Awful State!!!!
20K less, are you freaking serious???? No wonder they sent the new employee packet before the interview, they thought they were getting a steal???? ~sighs~
This week there is only basketball camp. It is just in the morning. So they are having a good time without getting as physically exhausted.
The thing about basketball is that it has really changed a lot since when I played in school. There is a reason it is often referred to now as "street ball". Most of the kids who play it these days play in cities on the street (aka hoops on parking lots). The rules on the street are much different. The players call the fouls and only wimps call on the wussy fouls. It is hard core ball.
Here is an example of street ball with rules: http://www.macker.com/ When we lived in Ohio, this tournament came to our town every year. But the "street" rules rolled out into the streets. So the town, now, only permits kids' tourneys and not adults.
If you watch any ball on TV, you can see the difference in the intensity of the game (college or pro) over what it was even 10 or 15 years ago.
What I am trying to get at is that a lot of Punks play basketball. Youth is now no different. My boys ran into several of these little punks within the first hour of camp yesterday.
Now there was a time just a few years ago that these punks would instantly make my oldest DS their target. He really does have a sign on top of his head that has a big cartoon neon lit up arrow that points down saying "PICK ON ME"! You all know the type of kid I am talking about. Heck, half of you may have been the same kid.
So it didn't take the punks in the room more then a 30 second radar check to find my son and zoom in on him.
Now lets back up a bit... Remember my oldest now has his 1st degree Blackbelt. DS2 will earn his in two months. They both are very good. They won silver and gold medals only recently in their age brackets at the national tournament. The oldest may be shy and insecure when it comes to social situations. But now, put him in anything that is full contact and your ass is his.
Back to basketball. The camp is for 8-18 year olds. They did divide the kids into age groups, but still there are some really big 10-12 year olds out there. Some kid bigger then DS1 came along and attempted to push him to the ground to get the ball from DS1. Step, slide, push to the side, big kid in tears and everyone backed off. Without a word, DS1 took the ball back turned and swooshed it.
How freaking cool is that????? This was all reported from DS2, who was quite impressed!
DS2 was impressed enough that when the same bunch of kids went to pick on a little 8 year old. He stepped in and told them to cut it out. His confidence was up too! They asked him what was he going to do about it. He just said again to back off. Apparently they did.
It feels good to know you are doing something right with your kids. They may drive me nuts from time to time. But I really do have a couple of great kids here. They are well on their way to becoming good men!
The general overall philosophy on children and how to teach them I find beautiful. It is a very nice blend of hippy tree hugging and strict academia. It is very hands on rather then textbook and workbook. There are so many crafts, projects and music. Yes, music is part of the instruction. The literature for the year was selected to emphasis the history.
1st grade: Little Bear, Little Bear's Visit, A Kiss for Little Bear, Mouse Soup, Mouse Tales, Frog and Toad are Friends, and Frog and Toad Together
4th grade: The Search for Delicious, Addie Across the Prairie, The Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe, Heidi, The Trumpet of the Swan, Stuart Little, Treasury for Children, The Sign of the Beaver, and OM Indian Legends
5th grade: Harriet Tubman Call to Freedom, Ben and Me, Johnny Tremain, Little House on the Prairie, Sarah Mortan's Day, The Witch of Blackbird Pond, If You Sailed on the Mayflower, Where Do You Think You Are Going Christopher Columbus, and Children of the Wild West
I have having DS1 do 5th grade instead of 6th lit and history for two reasons. The primary reason is that even with individual attention at home, he is still struggling as a reader. I really, really wish I would have waited one more year before placing him in Kindergarten. So I worry about him struggling with 6th material. He will be doing 6th math. I might end up pushing him ahead there ;) The other reason is that OM's 6th grade history/lit is all about mythology. We have spent most of the last two years on mythology and very little on American history... Guess which one I like better :)
So I made the decision to do the 5th grade material. As I have looked at so many different curriculum, I have found that through 3-7ish grades they are pretty much retaught the same things. This is a verb, this is a noun, this describes a verb, blah blah. The main difference comes in comprehension and vocabulary. Both are things in which DS needs to improve.
My one problem with it all, and this is more my problem then the curriculum's problem, is that DD will be taught how to knit. Yes, knitting is part of her package. LOL I guess, I will be learning something new as well.
The rational for this is that children need rhythm and repetition in order to learn focus. There is a bit more to it then that, but that is the jist of it. I may have to substitute something else for this bit as I really do not have the patience to knit. But we shall see.
Alot of the crafts are very boyish for the two older grades. So, the boys for the first time are really excited about starting the next school year. I have to say, I am almost wishing it was already August. Only time will tell if I will feel this way once we actually get started ;)
It didn't last very long. Maybe 20 mins before one of the babies heard me typing away and woke up. I am going to miss our back yard so much when we move. Hopefully we will find something similiar. But I doubt we will ever find anything within this price range anywhere else in the country.
Off to deal with the kiddies :)
I am Leather, Stone and Wood, secondary is Almond and Honey.
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But we have so many things that need done in the house. So many things I want to do. And I am not deciding to do any of them, because I can't make concrete plans on the future. I want to know what our family is doing and I hate being in limbo.
DH is really dragging his feet on the whole job hunting thing. There are soooo many jobs listed out there. Yesterday, I sent him 19, yes NINETEEN, jobs that were listed only yesterday. He looked at them at lunch and said that he did qualify for most of them. But he didn't apply to any, NONE. He won't go out and look. It is like he wants to keep me a freaking prisoner here forever.
DS1 will be in 7th grade next year. He LOVES soccer, basketball, and now baseball. There are no kids programs after 6th grade open to the public. They are all involved with public or private schools. The cheapest private school is $10k per year. The public school is ranked 54th out of 57 parishes. The state is ranked 45th out of 50. The public school had 5th graders caught having sex in the classroom when the teacher left them alone for 30 mins. The high school had a gang rape on campus. The high school had two teachers fired/arrested for having sex with students. One of the coaches was fired for being drunk at a game. A kid (appr age 12) at the concession stand this year gave me $19.50 in change for a $20 bill. This was after I purchased 2 hot dogs, 1 nachos, 3 cokes, and M&Ms. Another kid, around the same age, couldn't figure out the score board during a rec football game. The score was 12 and he had to add six to it. He stood their using his fingers and then put the score at 21. I could go on and on about other issues, safety, religion, corporal punishment, general redneck mentality... I just can NOT... WILL NOT put my kids into this school system.
I am just pissed that DH doesn't seem to be working as hard as I think he should work. And the thing is if I become compliant, then he does even less. GRR>>>> So frustrating.
Well I just found a new suggestion for him to follow up on in the job hunt. He better do it!
Through all these experiences throughout our whole marriage, I can so see why many women DESERVE! big payouts when they divorce their husbands. Men, as far as I am concerned, by nature are lazy arses. If they didn't have a woman behind them kicking their ass the whole way, they never would do anything.
Apparently after the shooting yesterday, someone set a fire at the house. Some arson specialists from the fire department is investigating.. Crazy people!
I am trying to decide whether or not to pick up hours at my old job or not. I really haven't decided whether or not I want my new job. I have only worked two days and it was BORE...ING!!!!!!! But gas is killer and I can't keeping dragging the old place along.
I really do not want to work killer schedules either over the summer. I want a little fun too. KWIM?
But I am not sure if I say I can't pick up any hours until August that they will keep me on payroll or not. I really would not want to have to go back through orientation to get my job back. Though I know they would hire me back... Yeah, I am not making much sense. It is just me working through my thoughts.
On a side note, I am on a quest to get DH hired SOMEPLACE. I have signed up with this little agency that will let me get ahold of top peeps email addresses. I am going to coherce DH into contacting some of the big wigs. Well, only IF he 110% qualifies for the job. He isn't happy with me over it, but I will MAKE HIM! GRRRR!!!
And what is it with people calling the house at 6:30 in the morning? Seriously? My mother had a yard sale today. I guess since she was up and bored, she had to call me. Thanks Mom! NOT!
I need food.... Am off ;)
I really really hate this place. Seriously. I mean in most parts of the country living near campus is the ideal. Near campus has the nicer homes and areas, safe for student apartments. But still you are talking about mostly good kids. They worst they usually do is have all night parties ... right? Someone tell me I am right :(
Nope not here. Most of the worst is close to campus. Now I really do not want them going back for the last two days :(
Editted to add link:
http://www.thenewsstar.com/apps/pbcs.dl
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If we weren't so far from home or at least some place where our children could be part of the community, I would just be like "chuck it." Financially, it would be easier for us to move next summer anyway. There are some things that we really should do to the house to help us sell it. We need a tad bit more then what we have in savings to be able to move without having to eat peanut butter and roman noodles for a couple of months. Not to mention, it should probably be a bit less stressful.
But lord, I really want to move. I wanted to move yesterday. We need to be someplace else. We really need to be some place else.... sighs... I guess I will just have to believe that everything happens for a reason, right?
You know I have actually been reading up on gardening, canning and chicken coops. I figure if we are stuck here, perhaps we should just bunker down and prepare for the future depression/recession/the world is ending outcome.... hehe But seriously, I have really been thinking about doing those things. The only thing really stopping me is that IF I invested all this money into a garden and chickens that is when he would get a job and we would have to move. Thus it would have taken away further from our savings and things would be even harder.
From reading the last two entries, one can easily see that I decided completely against private school for next year. Not only was the cost of tuition making me want to hurl every time I went to fill out the registration papers. But the school is ultra conservative Christian. I just couldn't expose my kids to creationism/intelligent design. And I couldn't expose them to weird historical views either. One of my girlfriends who sent her daughter to K there, actually said to me that her daughter came home with this statement "Abraham Lincoln got what he deserved because he didn't listen to God!" WTF???? So, no I couldn't do that to my kids.
Lets just hope we can get out of here before I am forced to put the kids in private school. And yes, I will be forced with the boys anyway, because they want to continue playing sports. Well all rec sports end in 6th grade (Jake is 6th grade). Thus next year, he HAS to be in a school if he wants to continue playing any organized sports. GAH! We have to move!
The Waldorf curriculum carefully balances academic, artistic and practical activities to prepare the child as thoroughly as possible for life’s experiences. Waldorf schooling also focuses upon nurturing the child’s self-confidence and self-reliance, while fostering his or her personal integrity and a sense of social and environmental interdependency and responsibility.
The philosophy behind Waldorf Education recognizes that children have distinct, age-related educational and emotional needs according to their naturally unfolding stages of development.
from Springhill School
Lesson plans are divided into weeks rather then daily lessons. It makes it nice as you can pick and choose which days you want to do what based on your activities and even on the weather. I hope that made sense?
One issue I found with it so far was a small section based on the mother (not the father and they specifically address this) being there fully for the child. Thus no outside work period. Though this may be best in most cases, not everyone can do this. We could, but I choose not to be there 24/7. I "need" a little bit of me time. I need a little bit of "I am important in the function of adult society" to keep me whole.
The last issue I found with it is that like most things in any belief system (usually religion) is that it states several times that their way is the best way and implies that anyone doing different is some how harming their child. I really hate blanket statements/philosophies like this. There are too many variables in the human population for any kind of one size fits all mentality. So I am trying to read over these parts and not take them too much to heart.
I so have a strong feeling this will be the best for my DD. I do sit back and wonder how different my two older ones would be if I had gone this route rather then the more traditional route of school. Would they be more at ease with learning, would they enjoy it more, would they have more confidence, etc? But I can't change back the clock and find out. Besides from 4th grade and higher, Oak Meadows strays further away from Waldorf so I may never find out.
I do think that if this works well with DD1, I may use it for the twins no matter where we may move. We have been wanting to move so that the kids can go to a good public school and I can have a few hours of time to myself again (like finally get a clean house, get errands done, etc). But if I can pull off this curriculum in the younger years, I may just have to stick with it.
Well that was my ramble for the day. I doubt it makes much sense to anyone but me. Now I have to run to town as the boys forgot to take their bathing suits to camp today.
Well, I cleaned up our library yesterday. I went through and got rid of a ton of stuff. Reorganized all the readers and educational texts, etc. I now have two full shelves for next years curriculum.. Yep I finally decided on what I wanted to do. I know I never came back on here asking for advice. But I couldn't help myself. I fell in love with this curriculum. I just hope it works out for the kids.
www.oakmeadow.com
I already purchased for 5/6th grade and k/1st grade. Though I think I got ahead of myself. Originally I thought that their K was too simple. DD already knows everything they are teaching academically in K. But their 1st is designed for children aged 7 years. She won't be 7 until next summer. I have a couple of their readers for 1st grade at home and I went to read them to DD yesterday. She had a very hard time comprehending the story. I really need to call that speach therapy place again today and follow up making that appointment for her. I will say though that I remember LOVING those Little Bear readers when I was a kid and am very excited about using with which to teach her.
What I really like about this curriculum is that it is very "gentle". DS1 has a very hard time with strict curriculum. When it doesn't work, he shuts down and that pretty much ruins the day. I am hoping this new (well new for me) way of teaching will really help him blossom. He wants to go so far with his education. But at the same time, he really does not like learning. I so hope this will change things for him and give him that spark back.
I have always stated that I really do not have much to worry about for DS2. However, that isn't really true. He has things so easy. Anything I put in front of him, he just gets. Makes it really easy to teach him. However, he has realized that it is easy for him and thus has also stopped wanting to do more. Isn't that the normal human response. Do as little as we have to do? Most of us like to think we don't work this way. But in truth, most of us do most of the time. So I am hoping again that this style of teaching will put a spark under DS2 as well.
Only time will tell. And I should be getting the first of the books this week. I can't wait!
Well, I got my first exposure to rural healthcare last night. I didn't see anything I hadn't seen in the city ER. It was the different attitudes and flow that was new to me. I am really not sure I will like it or get used to it. Needless to say, I am missing the old place already.
I kept telling myself last night... There is a reason I don't do psych! and then You can do this. You can do this!
I do not get anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, etc. I know these are real problems. I know these people are suffering. But I just do not deal with them well. I just want to slap them and say GET OVER IT! Not great bedside manner there, I know, but it is how I feel. At the city hospital, people were placed on PEC (physician emergency certificate)if they came in with these problems. Thus their rights were taken away and they were placed in a mental health unit. Or we would give them something to calm them down and tell them to see their own physician for assistance and send them on their way. At the rural hospital, we hold their hand, talk them through it, call boy friends and offer them rides to a safe haven in our own personal vehicles..... I may force myself to do most of the later, but I won't be giving anyone a ride in my car, thank you very much! I like the big hospital better on this one. The rural is probably better for the patient, but this is really outside my comfort zone.
The flow was also very different. At the city hospital, I literally hit the floor running and went at that speed all night. The minimum rooms I was responsible for was 3, often up to 4 and occassionally 5. I would deal with 5-20 patients a night depending on if my rooms had hold beds or not. This was me, by myself. If it was something pretty intense, another nurse might back me up, but ultimately I was responsible for those patients. Granted, I didn't have to answer the phone or put in orders (not usually anyway), but we did full work ups on most patients. The reason we did full work ups is because our triage nurse would send the minor stuff to a different department.
Last night, I got to the rural hospital and put on my battle gear with them all looking at me like... why you doing that? I think we saw a total of 11 patients over an 8 hour shift, 4 were psych, 3 falls, 2 babies, 1 hospice for pain (who shouldn't have been there at all)and the last was a chest pain. The only one who required any kind of work up was the chest pain. However, he was a frequent flier chest painer, so even the full work up wasn't ordered (thus perhaps the 5th psych patient). We had 3 nurses and 2 techs to deal with all of it... I was about to go nuts with boredom. I know I was the extra because I was orienting, but still, that would have been 2 nurses and 2 techs.
The good thing about last night was that I got to hear some GREAT redneck stories. Holy Moly, I love these. My favorite from last night was one of the gals discovered her husband was cheating on her. He wouldn't leave the house so she did. When he went out of town with the new woman, she went back into the house and pissed all over his cloths! I swear that is the best story I have heard in a looooooooong time!
I actually wanted to put up some kind of substantial post today. But I spent my allowed hour of internet time today looking at curriculum. I have only given myself an hour this morning to be online as I HAVE to get my house looking clean ;) I start my new job this afternoon. Though I usually work the graveyard shift, I am working 3-11 today. Thus a babysitter is coming to the house. I jsut can't have anyone looking at my house in this poor shape. So this ends my crap post of the day. Off to clean!
Of course by the title, it can be taken different ways.. like waking to the smell of DH's old farts in the morning... Eww.. How romantic is that?
But this time it has to do with actual dumb Old Farts. Seriously, yes we have a huge german shepherd who likes to make strangers believe he really would rip your throat out and enjoy doing so. Thus I have no problem at all with any of the service guys coming to the door and asking me to bring the dog into the house. We got him for this very reason. We had our cars broke into UNDER our carport last year. This was when I was very pregnant and sleeping next to the door that goes out into the carport. It made me very nervous and thus we got another german shepherd to make me feel safe.
So at 6:30 this morning, pulled from my lovely sleep, I hear the big freaking dog barking insanely... guess who he sleeps by.. well you would think me, right... NO he sleeps next to the babies. Who I then proceed to hear screaming at the tops of their lungs, because they were awakened in terror by the blood curdling barking from the monster dog.
I get up. Yell at the dog. Dog continues to bark and act nutso in his pen. I am thinking... dang do you really have to pee that bad.. freaking males...grr... So I go to let the dog out and what do I see standing at the door... a FREAKING OLD FART!
Why the hell does he need to read our electric meter at 6:30 in the freaking morning??? And could he NOT hear the dog was in the house??? Holy crap! Go read the damn meter already!
I don't think it is going to be a very good day today :(
Fortunately, the hospital is only a few blocks from the house or I would be really frustrated. I had to make looong trips to my old place of employment only to find the same thing happening. I wasn't just frustrated by it, I was royally ticked off to have made that drive only to find I have to go back.
Yes, I could call first. But you know most things aren't quite that simple. I had called the old place and was told only "Our office hours are from x-y." Well, great! If that is your office hours, why wasn't the person there I needed when I got there?????
But I need that badge done! I start work in two more days and I have to have it to work. Hopefully, today will be my lucky day. Wish me good photo taking vibes please!
Here comes the update!
The twins are getting so big. They are standing without holding on. I just know they will be taking steps any day. They still have no hair. I just can't figure that out. My other three had mops on their heads by the time they were 6 months old. These girls only have peach fuzz. So I can't even tell yet what color their hair is going to be. Most days I think it is a strawberry blond color. But some days it goes from auburn, to brunette, to light brown, to blond. Come on and grow already, I can't take the suspense! 
Micky is going to be the death of me, I think. The girl has already climbed out of her crib, thus she is now forced to sleep in the port-a-crb. She has climbed out of the highchair. She has wedged herself behind the entertainment center. She has climbed the boys' beds and fallen off. Last night, I found her next to the fish tank with her hands in the water????
Maddy is still all about drama. If Micky doesn't kill me by given me a straight out heart attack. Maddy is going to kill me by sending my blood pressure through the roof. Dang, that girl can hold on to some drama. However, I think she is going to be my swimmer. She LOVES going into the pool, bath tub, sink, cat water bowl, drool... anything wet.
Now on to the big kids. We mostly finished up homeschool. The public schools got out in the middle of May. So since then we have slowed way down. I am thinking we will go through the summer, but just do light things to finish up. I have been researching curriculum for next year. I will probably post about that later on. I may need some assistance, insight on what I am going to use. I didn't get as far with Marcy as I had wanted. So summer is going to be mostly about her. I am having the boys to minimum reading through the summer and I purchased a summer curriculum package that preps them further for the next grade.
Marcy has really made great strides this past year. Even though I didn't do as much schooling with her as I wanted. She still picked up so much on her own. If I was more organized, I really think "unschooling" would work great for her. But that is way too much of a commitment. To really make that style work, a person has to be able to do it all at the drop of a hat. I just can't do it. And in all honesty, I think most people who say they use this style of homeschool can't do it either. Just my opinion. 
She is going to start dance this summer. Depending on how she does, we will either keep her just in dance or start her in Tae Kwon Do as well. She has never really liked the TKD. We had her in the Tiger Cubs (preschool version of it). She didn't really like it at all. But we may try it again. She has been out of it a year. I know she will love dance, but not sure if she can follow the directions for either of them.
Which reminds me, I have to call the speech thearapist back to get her that appointment to have her evaluated. I still believe she has an auditory processing disorder of some kind. For her age, she still has a hard time figuring out more then 2 step directions. She can not sing very many songs. She can sing the melody but not the words. Her vocabulary is no where close to where it should be for an almost 6 year old. And the list grows.
Ford has had a really great year... well other then being lazy. He knows he can figure out just about any thing school related I put in front of him. So, he just puts it off until I have to ride him to get it done. He has done well in his sports. He got invited to play in a youth football league in a neighboring town. He is in baseball. Although he didn't make allstars, he has improved tremendously.
Jake as usual works so hard and still struggles with his school work. I moved him up to 5th grade work this year, because I 
thought he was ready for it. He struggled every day and really got discourage. So I am thinking of using a different curriculum (see mention above) and having repeat 5th grade language arts again. I am waiting to decide on what their Standford Achievement Tests show.
Both boys have done totally awesome in their Tae Kwon Do this year. We went to their school's national tournament. Jake recieved his black belt this winter and had to compete in the higher ranks. He got second place in both divisions he was entered into, forms and sparring. Ford earned his red belt this winter (he goes for his black belt in two months). He got first in both of his divisions, forms and sparring. There is a regional tournament coming up at the end of this month and another national tournament in October. If they place twice more (3rd, 2nd, or 1st) they will get a special ranking within the organization.
I have them both signed up for various sport camps this summer. Ford is going to football, baseball and basketball. Jake is going to soccer and basketball. All the camps are at ULM. Basketball they will be doing at ULM and Louisianana Tech. I am hoping their TKD school will also have another summer camp. I will definately send them to that as well.
As far as DH is concerned. He has been applying to jobs like crazy. Yes, we homeschool. But we do so because we were forced to do it. I really really really would perfer the kids went to an actual school. I know Ford and Marcy would perfer to be there. It just isn't possible for them to go to this school. Not only is the public school completely unexceptable. But it was made even worse for next year. The parish has opened a charter school. Now the few students with responsible parents that actually went to the public school have transferred to the charter school.
So we are getting desperate on DH's job front. We want to move. We really want to move back home (Ohio, Indiana, Michigan or Kentucky). But we are so desperate, he is applying to just about anything at this point. He has had several interviews (Dayton, Columbus, Ft Wayne, Lousiville, Dallas and Atlanta) but nothing has come of any of it yet. I think companies really have these positions to fill, but are hesitant to fill them until they are more secure with the economy (aka after the elections). So I am tying to be okay with yet another year here in this piece of crap place.
As for me, well I am in the process of switching jobs. Originally I had thought about working at the local hospital simply because of gas prices. I wanted to work at the big hospital/ER because that is where I would get experience. I want to be a better nurse. I want to learn as much as I can. But we got a new ER manager and he was absolutely impossible. Rather then go into all the details, he told me that I needed to find employment elsewhere. So I did. The day after I got hired in the new place.. my original place of employment fired him or rather asked him to put in his resignation. Apparently he told more then half the staff the same thing and ALL of them found employment elsewhere. When half the nursing staff left, the doctors quit too. You can't run an ER without nurses or doctors, so out went the ER manager :p
But I am sticking with my new job even though the old manager is gone. I get paid the same and I don't have to give up 2 extra hours for driving or spend the money on gas. The hospital is only 3 blocks from my house. I am nervous about it because after midnight, I will be the ONLY nurse in the ER. So, I am going to be studying my butt off on all the down time I am also going to have. It is a 4 bed ER in a very rural community. So I do not expect it to be super hopping in the twilight hours.
So that is the basic run down. I will try to expand on things in the next few days. But as this post took me nearly 3 hours to write from all the distractions going on, I will expand little by little.
Well that was one heck of a vacation? LOL Actually, I couldn't get logged back in and was way to lazy to figure out my password. Yep forgot it and didn't want to spend the time typing in the reminder crap to get it emailed to me.
Well, I am going to try to put my life back down in the journal again. But for now, it is time to go to bed. Night!
